barbie doll ~ scary....

As a little girl, her toy normally is barbie dolls...
I was a little girl, yeah..of course, but... I seldom play barbie doll, why? erm... later explain to you. I had many other toys like soldiers, puzzles, logos, etc....

The One and Only, my First & also the Last barbie doll is tall & slim & beautiful & has a long long light-brown hair, wearing a (exchangeable) pink dress with a pair of pink high-heeled shoes. It's my birthday present for my "x" years old birthday. It cost my parents about RM50 or around that, it's quite expensive >"< In fact, I like it very much....

However, one day, my father rented a video tape. It's a scary movie about those barbie dolls which can move and kill human. It's really really scary.... horrible....
After finished watching, I went to sleep... not sure it's dreamming or it's an illution, I saw my barbie doll which I placed at the top of my cupboard moved.... its leg could move~! ooh.. right after I woke up, immediately I took that barbie doll and threw it away! I was so scared....

Just because of that movie [ forgot what its name already ], I threw the expensive doll... what a waste huh? lol
But.. I think if I can choose to throw it or not, sure... surely I won't throw now... haha

dream

The dream I mentioned here is the dream we having in night.
Do we dream every night? Or sometimes dream sometimes not?
I can say that sometimes I dream sometimes not, but once i read in an article, it says that we dream every night, but when we wake up, we may have already forgotten that we dreamt. It's because wake up at different time zone decides whether we can remember the dream or not. But actually it's true or false, I am not sure =P

haha, today's blog sounds a little bit serious.
Today morning, when I woke up, I remembered my dream. It's weird...really weird neh~!
I dreamt that I am not my parents' daughter. I dreamt that my parents don't want me anymore. So scary~~
But.. haha... I know it won't happen, because my parents told me that even if I am not their 'real' daughter, they won't abandoned me also, lol. They said, not 'real' one so what, not important what~! The most important is we are the family which have been together for so many years...we are true to each other and intimate enough!
Although didn't do DNA test before, but I think 99% I am their child. The 1% is ... maybe when I was a baby, the nurse confused jor and mixed up...lol, imagination too strong. My baby look with my youngest brother's are almost 90% same too, so... know lah... It can't be happened ler. It's just a dream.
But ... how to interpret this weird dream? What will happen next huh? Maybe nothing, I don't know.

talk about dream.... made me think of another experience..
Do you believe that I can dream about my future happening event?
ahah.. just normal one.. not serious event ler... I think many of us have that ability.
For e.g: when I once in classrom, my teacher asked us to do a project, I felt that... I was in the same situation before, almost the same event, what teacher said was the same as in my dream.... wah... weird huh? Not only once, I experienced it many times already, sometimes wondering when is true when is fake @@''
Do you?

call me leng lui !?

what is leng lui? It means 'pretty', read it in cantonese.

so, am I a leng lui?
No~! yo... I don't think so, but....

the situation is like this, I never being called as leng lui in my school, it's because I am always nothing special, wearing a pair of golden spectacles, short, have a very normal face with many pimples on it. (want to see how I look like? I won't post it over here, just go my friendster if you want, click on the link at the sidebar)

As we all know, always when you go to a shop, want to buy food or etc, the boss or shopkeeper or salesman.... will say, 'leng lui, mau beli apa?' some sentences like this, always say 'leng lui' or 'leng zhai', all positive call, no matter how actually the customers look like. So, I really always being call as leng lui (you're the same, right?)

Since, I always display my photo in my msn, my net friend can see how I look like (recently, I always display different photo of mine since I bought a handphone with camera function). My netfriends say, 'oh, you're a leng lui leh'. hmm... maybe quite pretty in the photo, but.. they are just photo,besides I don't wear my ugly spectacle when take photo,plus if the photos are being taken at the right angle, someone can become prettier than they are. It's my opinion. Other than that, we can't clearly see the pimples also (especially in small photo).

Lastly, although I think I'm not pretty, shouldn't be called as leng lui, but... I allow you to call me as leng lui. wuahahha.... you know why?
That's because.... my name is Cheah Yee Leng, can guess? yo...yeah... see? haha..still dunno?
sometimes, people only call their friend's name's last word. mine is LENG
and... in cantonese, people use 'lui' to call girl, use 'zhai' to call boy...
aha~! can figure out? yeah... my name's last word is Leng, I am a girl (lui),
call me Leng Lui~!

shopping <------> my family

Since I was few months old baby...haha..I already went shopping mall "hang gai" ler...
Every Sunday is my family day... which mean I go shopping with my family every Sunday, except we have something urgent or etc to do on that day. If not, we surely will go shopping.
Very long time ago, my daddy used to bring me(when I was still a baby) to sleep at shopping mall --> yaohan (beside PWTC de) haah... because it's hot to sleep at our rented louya house in afternoon
Last time there was so silent on the top floor of yaohan, even the guard also allowed my daddy to do so ( that time I slept in a perambulator )

O.O wow.. such a long time story you still remember?
No no...haha.. this one...told by my daddy ler...

But actually other than go shopping mall, we used to go to parks quite often at the time we(brothers and I) were still kids. Now... lazy to walk in the park also.. too bad.
Modern exercise for we these lazy people is just shopping.... when you are shopping, you walked a lot..right? Especially when shopping at Midvalley Mega Mall~!

Actually why I said every Sunday is my family day? It's because brothers and I aren't staying together with my parents lor... so we seldom be together. Although stay quite near, but... we don't see each other so frequent. Frankly, I was only close to my mom when I was studying in standard 6 because I started going my mum's shop almost everyday to help. Before that, I was closer to my daddy than my mom. However, now I am closed to both daddy and mom. hehe^^

I love M@nglish

Not to criticise Malaysian, as I'm one of those who like to speak Manglish, yeah.. rock..
haha... when I speak English, I like to mix with Chinese + Malay. Even when I am speaking Chinese, I like to add in English + Malay. If I speak Hokkien, I like to add in Chinese, Malay & English; and the same with when speaking Malay.
LoL
oh ya.. I always add 'leh' ; 'oh' ; 'ah' ; 'ma' etc... just to show my emotion...hehe^^
That has become Malaysian's Chinese people's custom I think. Nice to speak, nice to hear. Sometimes don't know why just like to mix few language to be used together. Can it be called as 'Rojak'? ^^
Personally I don't like to learn Malay Language or read Malay's story [that's why my Malay only get B3 in SPM], but I always 'campur' them in my english speaking especially. Just don't know why I think some words from Malay are more suitable to describe something when I am speaking English. It's the same when I am speaking certain language and 'campur' some other language's word.

as long as we can control ourselves when speaking to those can't understand other languages other than the language we are speaking [like English especially], e.g: visitor from other country as they can't understand our manglish
besides, it's important to use pure English when we are writing formal letter and in the exam oh....hahaha

What I learned from working?

let's talk about my working experience~

all parents worry about their children to work outside at our young age which they said it's not mature enough, easy being cheated, that's why, I am helping my aunt, so they won't worry much but actually my mother and father own a bookshop, I always go there and help them during my schoolday and even now, since I was in primary school.

What I learned when I first help in my mum's bookshop ah? erm.. it's my first time on doing business, counting money, pay back money, always pay extra money to customers huh? Other than that, I started to read comic since that is a bookshop selling or renting comic books, novels most on love story, magazines and etc... One of the longest story of comic surely is Dragon Ballz yeah.. your eyes still function good, don't think gal don't read boys comic ya ^^ oh..

second job is current job, work as an assistant in direct selling's stockist. This direct selling company is Exxxx (I think it's quite popular now, the number 1 direct selling company in Malaysia right now, oops.. macam sedang membuat promosi). What I want to explain is 'what is stockist'. Since its headquater is located at Klang Lama,KL, and there are many many customers all over Malaysia, so.. for customer's convenient to buy products, the stockists are being set up at areas in different state. My aunts who are direct sellers own a stockist, so I am there helping her.
Actually it's a business also, haha, what I learned from there is... learn to count bigger amount of money, lol. My work over there is do some clean work (e.g: sweep the floor or stairs, wash the toilet =.="), check stocks, arrange stocks, and help my aunt swipe credit card, ahaha.. I know how to swipe cards~! lol.. just a easy job ler... ; other than that, I am in charged of buying lunch box at nearby restaurant. oh ya.. I also gained some knowledge on health as this is a company selling health care products. Besides, my work there actually is really really few and easy, relax, allowed to watch tv, play computer (like now posting in forum), etc. wah... where got such an easy job? lol... jealous at me ler? but not high salary ler.. since just doing these easy job, only RM500 per month. No need stand for whole day, no need wake up at early morning, but back home late sometimes.

From working, I know that... (normally people will say from working, I know working is suffering, and hard), I won't say that de, I will say, working is boring..haha... study is much more better hor, got friends, more interesting for me, yeah... soon I will study form 6 already, last few years I thought studying was boring, now I think studying is better than working =p
I copy this from my post in recom and edited some

out of battery o.O

The day before yesterday, Tuesday, when my aunt and I were rushing to go to work, we found that her Kancil car couldn't give response after she pressed the black "alarm button". Then, she used the key to open the door. Normally, if we use "alarm button" to lock the car, then we use key to open the door, it will trigger its alarm. However, no sound could be heard. After that.... OMG~! the car couldn't be started....

Only then, discovered that the car was out of battery =.=" my aunt didn't realise that she switched on the spot light yesterday night! In the rush, she walked fast to the nearby BP station to call for help. Then, a quite old man drove his car came and helped us to start the engine. For this service, she paid him RM12... so expensive huh?
We thought the period of time which we used to reached the working place ~>stockist about 20 minutes was enough to recharge the battery. It's wrong. She couldn't start the engine again. After that... haha.. we didn't scare of this though. Why? erm..it's because below our stockist (first floor?) there is a car workshop and the boss is kind too. He helped my aunt to start the engine Free Of Charge ^^ He told us that the car battery was 100% used so have to recharge by engine started for about 2 to 3 hours...haha

This is not the first time my aunt don't realise she switched on the light of the car =.="
If my father is there at that time, she didn't need to pay RM12. hehe^^

In Love we Trust

A little girl and her father were crossing a rickety bridge. The latter was kind of scared, so he said, "Honey, please hold my hand so you won't fall into the river."

She told him, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" asked the puzzled parent.

"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, your will never let my hand go."

a short meaningful article sharing here ^^ enjoy it.

Family Matters

hoho, today I don't have to go for working. The mainly reason is because there will be only our maid home alone if I don't stay too. Too dangerous to take risk.

"maid" wow... you are rich~!
Uh hum... no no.. totally not! That maid is not my family's but my third aunt's. My family is too complicated, but I think not only my family ler.. every family has their own problems... haizzz

My small family consists of my parents, two younger brothers and I. The house I'm staying now is my father's but my parents are not staying with us. They stay at their rented old and 'louya' bookshop nearby. The members that stay at this house include: my grandmother, my first, second single aunt, my third aunt with her husband and two sons, and my two brothers+me. It's really quite complicated, but what I can tell is... the richest people not my father, but is my third aunt. How to compare? : She drives BMW, her husband drives Mercedes, the maid is theirs. While my father drives Proton Iswara only, and my second aunt drives Kancil. haha...

So, recently, my third aunt gave birth to a female baby, just few days ago. Then, now she stays at her own house, she needs someone to take care of her and her baby, so my grandmother is there to help. Her two sons are studying at schools nearby my house, so they two are still staying here and the maid is taking care of them. However, it's impossible to us to leave the maid home alone.
My youngest brother studying in form 2, afternoon class while my younger brother studying in form 5, morning class. However, my younger brother has to attend tuition class today (monday) so, there will be only the maid home alone...

After long story, that's what I want to explain why I am staying at home today but not working...lol

I'm fine ^^ indeed

Erm... after tonight, I'm so relax and happy and ... totally happy ler...
Why? You will surely ask. Hmm.. before this I was so confusing, unhappy, and blur blur; now I am happy and clear~!
"Aha, you are in love already?" "You must be in love already~!"
"uh hum... no .. definitely nop, but it's the opposite of what you think..."
"however, I am really happy, not pretending... why? Simple reason, coz I finally know how he feels towards me after stated clearly to me, so I won't be in blur blur situation, and the most important thing is... I finally realise what is the biggest enemy to myself, my weakness --> 'zi yi wei shi' self-approbation (newly learned word, lol) or think one is the whole cheese , this leads to my misfeeling to him? yeah.. most probably

yes.. really .. Now I only discover I always like this, always self-approbation, always guess other people thinking the same thing with what I am thinking. That's why I met the 'down', coz I've thought too much, exceeded, too greedy, desire for love maybe, desire to be loved, to be 'sayang'

actually he told me before, but I didn't change it and forgot about its existence in my inner heart. Yeah.. that's why I redo what I did, made the same mistake, finally, now.. I want to say that, I am very clear about this, I will change, surely, I won't make the same mistake, I've already understand what's my biggest weakness now~! wah... I really got many weakness indeed, erm.. really takes time to change hor.. no worry.. I will change gradually ^^

Finally, I will like to say thank you to him for teaching me such an useful lesson and many many things. You're bad indeed but Good too ^^ (eee....? why I always being self-contradictory 'zi xiang mau dun' de har?) ahahaa....(macam sedang beri ceramah saja? lol) Friendship forever ya~!
Of course, I want to thanks to my friends that comfort me by sending message to me in msn or leave the comment for the blog, thx ya~!

vocabullary learned today :
self-approbation / think one is the whole cheese
self-contradictory = expressing one thing which is the opposite of another thing that was already said; saying two things which cannot both be correct

Thoughts on life

adapted from The Star, 'youth section' :

Have you ever felt like you have reached the point where you just don't care anymore? Not due to frustration or anything of the like but more like just one day realising that you've been going through life but you are not there (as in what makes you tick)? It's like somehow, someone flicked a switch somewhere and you just didn't realise it. You breathe, you eat, you sleep and yet you go through the day emotionless. Nothing fazes you because you are not there.

Each day passes and that day never returns. Never to be relived again. The choices made cannot be undone. The words said cannot be unsaid. The actions cannot be taken back. Tiredness overwhelms yet the sheer immensity that is life keeps turning the wheels. Never resting, never waiting.

Keep up or you will be left behind. You run and run, racing with the pack. Life passes you by yet you don't stop to look: you can't afford to lose time.

And then you finish. You lie there, motionless. The race is finished.

Congratulations, you've finished the race. You've reached the line. You're done. Done with life, done with studying, done with work, done with family, done. What did you live for? What race were you running? What was the prize?

Did you see the people cheering you along when you were running? No, you were too busy running. Or the cool, refreshing breeze that was blowing? You didn't feel them. You were too busy running.

The people who gave up on the race, who stopped by the side, not wating to continue - did you stop to help? No, you were too busy running. Did you learn from the traumas and troubles of your life? No. Did you enjoy the joy and happiness that graced your life? No. The pain, the tears, the joy - did you feel them? No, you were too busy running.

Do you remember the race? What were you running for? The race is over now. What did you win? What did you lose?

So are you living? Or are you staying alive? Stop running.

LoVe ? confusing + complicated

Today, I'm happy because one of my best friend has had her first love. I hope they can be happy together forever, although many people said normally people don't end up with their first love. Most of us date several people, fall in love and out of love, and eventually walk up to the altar with someone when both mutually agree that this is it.
I wish them enough, wish my friend and her partner can together walk up to the altar one day, hopefully...

A columnist said, "to fall in love with someone is a minor miracle: often the timing isn't right. One is ready when the other isn't. Youth is indeed the stage to meet the pool of potential mates and when the timing is right, the wished-for bond cements."

yeah.. I think he(columnist)'s quite right, as... I was in the same situation... maybe not only "was" but also "coming soon"
Do I love him? or it's just a illusiveness? or?
18 years old... not a childishness age, but not yet a mature enough age, to you maybe not, but surely to me, I'm inmature. I can't control my feeling well... complicated... I don't know what I want now, I don't understand what I am feeling now... yup... you may don't understand what I am talking about right now... that's because I am so confusing right now. Love is suffering... I still don't know what is love

haiz... "you better don't think much about this, just concentrate on your study ler..." that is what I am thinking now... Hopefully, after two years of studying, I will be mature enough, either in deciding my future job or in my love world.
Beside, I hope I can change my bad attitude now. Hot-tempered, get angry easily, jelousy, envy, no self-confidence...blah blah blah...
yes~! say to myself, be a better lady~!

Burdened with "pretty ladies"

Once upon a time, a big monk and a little monk were travelling together. They came to the bank of a river and found that the bridge had been damaged. So, they had to wade across.
As they splashed through the water, they came upon a pretty lady who was stuck at the bridge. The big monk offered to carry her over to the other side on his back, and she accepted.
The little monk was shocked by his companion's offer. "How can big brother carry a lady when we are supposed to avoid any intimacy with females?" he thought to himself. But he didn't say a word.
He waded along, unhappily, as the pair crossed the river. When they reached the opposite bank, the big monk put the lady down and they parted ways with her.
For several miles, as they continued their journey, the little monk mulled over all kinds of accusations to throw at the monk. In the process, he got angrier and angrier. But he still kept quiet. Finally, at a rest point many hours later, he could no longer contain himself and burst out:
"How can you claim to be a devout monk when you seize the first opportunity to touch a woman, especially a very pretty one? All your teachings make you a big hypocrite."
The big monk looked surprised and said, "I had put the lady down at the river bank many hours ago. Why are you still carrying her along?"

This old Chinese story reflects the thinking of many people today. In life, we encounter many unpleasant things which irritate us or make us angry. Sometimes, they cause us a lot of hurt, or make us bitter.But, like the little monk, we are not willing to let go of them. We continue to carry the "pretty lady" long after we have crossed the river.

Eating Disorders

erm.. today let's talk about eating disorders, why? Because recently I'd read about Dieting Dilemmas in The Star. So, let's learn some Biology, having some biology class.

There are three types of eating disorders: anorexia, bulimia and binge-eating.
Anorexics starve themselves and have an intense fear of putting on weight even though they are at least 15% underweight.
Bulimics, on the other hand, eat a lot in short bursts and try to induce vomiting or purging in order to get the food out of their body.
People suffering from these two eating disorders don't want to gain weight, but those who suffer from binge-eating do not seem to care about their weight. They are diagnosed with the disorder if they have at least two binge-eating episodes a week for six consecutive months.

Aneroxia can cuase low blood pressure, anaemia, brittle hair and nails, brittle bones and the early onset of osteoporosis, as well as halting your periods.
Bulimics who constantly throw up will develop an inflammation of the oesophagus (the tube leading from the throat to the stomach) due to the stomach acid constantly moving up. They could also damage their pancreas, which would effect enzyme production and render the body unable to absorb needed nutrients.
Those with binge-eating disorder usually end up overweight, which brings all sorts of accompanying risks - heart disease, diabetes, breathing problems, high blood pressure and high cholesterol levels, to name a few.

Although I always control my eating habit, however, I won't facing these problems, surely ^^ coz actually..hmm.. me not very fat also mar~! hahaha... be confident or think that too thin is not good also wat

O_O slept at 5 am?

9 April 2005 work till 10 April 2005 , 2.30 a.m ......
haha.. sure wondering why? hmm....
first, explain what I work as now, before telling, have to explain what is ELKEN.
ELKEN is a direct selling company mainly selling health care products, its headquater is located at Klang Lama. So, for customer convenient, every area had set up a branch named stockist, stockist is the place selling the products and where activities held.
So, I am working an assistant in Sg. Buloh stockist. That stockist belongs to my aunt, so I am just helping my aunt. I go to work by her car (go with her), and actually my work over there's not much, I just help to check stock, take stock, do some chores, help to serve a better service for customers.
Then, 10 April 2005 is MRT Carnival, a special event which offered nice promotions. So, my aunt was working very hard for the sales for carnival(next day's but it's a pre-order sale) but I was just waiting there to go home, however, she needed some help from me too.

After reached home at so late time, I took bath then rest then start to play computer again (use), however, my brother told me that the computer was infected by spyware again @@" OMG~! If I didn't fix that problem, I won't sleep well for that day, so I'd decided to fix it before I went for sleep.
Since I'd tried to solve it before ( the computer at stockist ), so I went to download those softwares and then finally get rid off them~! yeah~! *praise myself* *grin*

But then, my school's senior, IQing told me that he'd set up a forum for our former school, SMK Taman Ehsan,http://smkteworld.999.org, so I was so excited then immediately went for registration. Then, he added me as Admin oh~! This is the first time I being admin in a forum, lolz. (But I don't know much of the thing to do)
That's what I did until I was so busy to be not going to sleep by 5++a.m.

Erm.. about the carnival ah.. nothing special to tell, but.. the dinner....
After the carnival, in Sunway Pyramid, we'd decided to go for a dinner at one of the restaurant, it's a Thailand restaurant. Written on the board outside of the restaurant ~> RM 19.90++ per person for steambot, we thought that the beverage was included into the fees, however, they gave us menu and what I saw in the menu is.... RM2.50 for a chinese tea... @@" apa ni~! We were 9 persons in total, just asked for 2 chinese tea (refillable), not many types of food provided only =.=" bad service too. And... in the end, when we payed the bill, we just know that we'd to pay for 10% government tax ... #)Q$&#$!@_#*@!#)@&$
total RM 200++ aiyo.... we'd decided not to choose to eat at this restaurant anymore, this's the first time we come to this restaurant. Maybe it's not expensive to many people, we just think like that. =P

happy but sad ???

Happy>>>
Today, I was happy when I finally solve the spyware problem occured at the office's computer.
By using few free softwares downloaded from websites, finally... phew~~
Ad-Aware SE personal edition: http://www.download.com/Ad-Aware-SE-Personal-Edition/3000-8022_4-10319876.html?tag=pop
Spybot search & destroy: http://www.download.com/Spybot-Search-Destroy/3000-8022_4-10289035.html?tag=pop
CWShredder: http://www.intermute.com/spysubtract/cwshredder_download.html
Hijack This: http://tomcoyote.org/hjt/#Top
Hijack This is a tool that lists most if not all know places on your computer that spy/adware is known to target. These include all software that starts up when you turn on your computer, everything that starts with your browser, items in the hosts file which may cause your browser to redirect to unwanted sites as well as many other things.
It's a complicated software to me so I referred to two tutorial websites
http://spywarewarrior.com/viewtopic.php?t=3624
http://www.spywareinfo.com/~merijn/htlogtutorial.html
These two websites : It will show you how and where to look up and research each item in your log, which tools and databases you will need and where to get them. It will show you how to tell which items are good or bad and how to know which items need fixing with HijackThis. It will also show you what these items represent in graphical form or provide a link to further information on the items so that you will know exactly what you are fixing.

After reading the tutorial websites for the whole afternoon, finally fixed the problems.

Sad>>>
After that, I was sad... why? I felt sadness when I received the call from my mum telling me that the cat she reared died after two hours being knocked down by a van. It is my mum's loviest male cat named Lok Lok. The van driver claimed that he saw the cat ran away already while it wasn't~! He was driving the car at high speed even when he'd reached the destination already -- my mum's book shop.
So, that van driver was actually the person who was in charged to deliver goods to my mum's shop. In the call, my mum said she don't want to take goods from him anymore as he denied he'd knocked down our cat. Our cat was so innocent! In fact, our cat was lying beside the road in front of my mum's shop with its yellowish friend (another cat). Maybe it thought the place it was lying was inside enough /safe to avoid being knocked down. However, if that van driver didn't drive at such high speed, our cat would have enough time to ran away... haiz... what a pity~! My mum was really really sad...

A Best Friend since Standard One

This post I copied from the one I wrote in Recom forum last time:http://www.recom.org/modules.php?name=Forums&file=viewtopic&t=915&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=15

She(Lxxx Yxxx Pxx) was my best friend but not now ever. We were so close but not now... We were classmates when standard one and two, she lived near my house, so we always played together and went to school together. Although we studied in the different classes after that, but we got closer and closer.

However, I realised that friend can influence someone deeply. I don't mean my influence on her but her bad friend's. She become bad and having bad habits. One day, in the bus ( we taking the same bus to school when secondary ), I sat beside her as usual, (if not mistaken, we were studying form 3, near PMR) I talked to her but she didn't say anything to me, kinda ignoring me, so i thought she was in bad mood and didn't want to disturb her. But unfortunately, she didn't speak to me anymore after then, and i got angry so i didn't want to talk to her also. The situation remained the same until now... for few years we didn't contact and talk to each other.

But I knew that she being 'buang sekolah' and married when in form 4. That really surprised me and I felt dissapointed too. She married because having baby that time. What a pity to marry at so early time and... no more bright future to her... Until now, I really regret that I can't help her to being good. She chose the wrong way, haiz... sometimes I blame myself of not helping her.

Once in a while in primary school, she become bad also, but then I try to invite her to be with my friends and she turn good and willing to study hard. The second time, I didn't try my best to bring back her. Now .. I dont' contact her and didn't know her lately news.. =.='

SpYwArE ~ ~ ~ arghhhh ; Bad Internet Connection...

argh... the computer at my working place being infected by SPYWARE~! @@"
Before this, my house's computer was in the same situation last time, but right after the Ad-aware helped me to clean the spyware's files in computer. However, I attempted to use the same method this time but met the failure...
The pop-up still kept coming out to disturb me and my homepage turned to a "About.blank"(web address) with 'search for' [content]. Aiks... I kept changing the homepage but it kept changing back to that "blank page" :S

Oh My God... how if I can't solve this problem? I'd installed many many types of 'anti-spyware' programme and those removal programme... but none of them can help.. T_T" cham ler this time, spoil my aunt's computer. If the computer is using Window XP, it would be a easy matter to me but it's not, it's using Window 98 only =.="
If is Window XP, I can use system restore or if still can't clear it I can reformat the whole window as it's an auto process; now the Window 98 don't have this system and if want to reformat it, it would be a hard job to me since it's not an auto process(which I really don't know to do)

Then, I searched in yahoo with "blank page as homepage problem", found some forums [about computer problems] discussed on how to solve the same problem I facing now. But it's a complicated process too... haiz.. hope few days later can solve it... gambateh to myself~! lol

Recently these few days... the Streamyx internet connection is really really down... too bad #.# made so many people no fun to search and play game, testing our patience?

Do you believe in fairy tale?

This is the song which I liked very much recently, too touching with its mv especially

歌曲名称：童话
歌手名称：光良
忘了有多久 再没听到你
对我说你 最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了
是不是我又 做错了什么
你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
(我要变会童话里 你爱的那个天使)
(我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使)
张开双手 变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会象童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写 我们的结局

translation:
song title: fairy tale
sing by: guang liang

Forgot there's how long, didn't hear from you
Telling me the story you love most
I've thought for a long while, I started to be panic
Is it I did something wrong again
In tears, you tell me that everything in the fairy tales is a cheat
I can't be your prince
Maybe you won't know, since you said you love me
In my sky, the stars even sparkling
I wish to become the angel that you love in the fairy tale
(I want to become the angel that you love in the fairy tale)
(I will become the angel that you love in the fairy tale)
Stretching my arms, to turn them into wings to guard you
You've to believe, believe that we will be the same as fairy tale,
Welfare and happiness be the ending
Together we write our ending

Tomb Sweeping Day

After checking dictionary and websites, finally I know how to call 'Qing Ming Jie' in English ^^, it's Tomb Sweeping Day~! *pai seh* oh yeah... at least I learned something ^^

Last few years I didn't follow my family go along to "visit" my passed-away-grandfather because I had to go to school for exams and studies. This year finally I can go to "visit" him. My grandfather's grave is located at "Fu Gui Shan Zhuang" (Nirvana Memorial Park) at Semenyih, Kajang. He 'lives' at the 3rd floor of his 'apartment', got many 'neighbours' too.

In the old days, Chinese visit their family graves to tend to any underbrush that has grown. Weeds are pulled, and dirt swept away, but... now the Company will do it for you, especially like my grandfather's grave, actually can it be called as grave? hmm... from dictionary, the definition for
grave is "a place in the ground where a dead person is buried"
tomb is "a large stone structure or underground room where someone, especially an important person, is buried"
my grandfather's "grave" apartment : a solid block with many died people's bone ash put inside (kinda Hong Kong drama's shown as)
aiya... or there is another word to replace it? Okay, forget about it, so.. what my family members and I did today was offering food for my grandfather and burning spirit money to him (other than spirit money, got the newest handphone too ^^), compared with the people in old days, they had to do more thing than us, as we no need to clear the bush up.

Another thing happened today ~~> most of my family members "had the trots" (=diarrhoea)...
But I was lucky to escape it, wuahaha, why this happened? That's because they ate the staled bun which made by my grandmother. They didn't discover it, and those buns were exposed to the air for a long time so become stale.
haha... today on the way to the destination to visit my grandfather and when came home, they were so suffering to find toilet.

today >.< stomachache T_T

HTML matters? @@" finally... searching how to add on extra function... then now added chatterbox~~!

aiyaya... stomachache today T_T"
Do you know why? Many gals don't like to mention it, but I don't avoid it, my stomachache is because of gals' matter ~ you know?
Tips: monthly facing pain >.<'
bingo, it's a menstrual period(haid in malay)... most of the girls facing the same problem too.
Besides stomachache, I've got headache too... haizzz (headache is bcoz of the a menstrual period too)
That's why girls suffering much more than guys... so.. guys should be considerate of their girlfriends, girls maybe moody and get angry easily coz of the uncomfortable.

We Live in a World of Copycats

Children have never been very good at listening to their elders. But they have never failed to imitate them. --James Baldwin,author

From a book I read (just see see actually), I found this meaningful phrase... the book entitled 'Copycat Marketing 101' (it's a book teaching people to find a way to copycat creating wealth)

The following are some of the content of that book which I didn't discover it before this:

One Thing We're All Good At is Copycatting
Each of us is blessed with certain talents and gifts that make us one-of-a-kind individuals. Some people are great dancers, while others can't tap their feet to the beat. Some of us have a talent for art, while others have trouble drawing a stick figure. Some of us are great athletes, while others can barely walk a straight line without stumbling.
But the one thing each and every one of us is good at - WITHOUT EXCEPTION - is copycatting.

Copycats from the Cradle to the Grave
Copycatting starts the day we are born. We copy the language we speak... the food we eat... the way we wear our hair... they way we walk... they way we dress.
When we enter school, we learn to read and write by copying letters in alphabet.
As we grew older, we learned to drive a car by copycatting, didn't we? The instructor showed us how to check the rearview mirrow...turn on the turn signal... push slightly on the gas pedal... drive the speed limit... and come to a full stop at intersections. The better we were at copying our driving instructor, the easier it was to pass our driver's test.

Before this, I really didn't realise that we are actually copycatting everyday~!

hedwig's 18 years old already ~!

o.O finally 18 years old already
Although don't have any celebration, but my mum 'belanja' me eat cornetto ^^

Last night went another friend's birthday party, she's my primary school time's good friend, Kaleena. Her actual birthday is at 1st of April = April Fool, lol. Long time didn't see her already, still remained the same, and met another two old friends. We these old friends didn't join the party dancing... too 'hot', no dare to dance lol... besides, there were so many Kaleena's secondary school(Chong Hwa)'s friends that four of us don't know them. Therefore, we just sat at outside and chat.

About 11.30pm, we went home by one of the primary school's friend, Sook Sean's car. Wow, she could drive well... and it's manual~! Although four of us got the driving license, but ...I think I am the worst...Aiks... since I'd got my driving license last two months, I'd just driven my daddy's manual Iswara for twice....=.=" my driving skill still not good enough ... my daddy said I still can't drive the car on my own.
On the way going home, we've met a traffic jam... wondering why happened at that late night, then ... saw police blocking car by car... checking something~! We discussed about what was the police checking while queueing... then when it's our turn, finally knew what they were checking... that is... they seems like finding someone suspicious by looking into each car... ahaha...

hedwig's first fly

Most of the people know what does hedwig mean, do you?
If you don't know, let me tell you then, Hedwig is a snowy owl which owned by Harry Potter~!

I like to name myself as Hedwig Elaine (my nickname I mean), first of all, I like this snowy owl; second, Elaine is my name. My net friends used to call me as 'hed', sounds like 'head' ^^" or most people call me as Elaine too.
I'm a ordinary chinese gal, real chinese name is Cheah Yee Leng.
Or my name is Elaine Cheah, now aged 17, tomorrow become 18 then. So.. that does mean tomorrow is my Birthday ~!!! ^^

ok... hedwig's first fly is quite a short journey... why? tired and hungry already >.<" hehe ^^