I'm fine ^^ indeed

Erm... after tonight, I'm so relax and happy and ... totally happy ler...
Why? You will surely ask. Hmm.. before this I was so confusing, unhappy, and blur blur; now I am happy and clear~!
"Aha, you are in love already?" "You must be in love already~!"
"uh hum... no .. definitely nop, but it's the opposite of what you think..."
"however, I am really happy, not pretending... why? Simple reason, coz I finally know how he feels towards me after stated clearly to me, so I won't be in blur blur situation, and the most important thing is... I finally realise what is the biggest enemy to myself, my weakness --> 'zi yi wei shi' self-approbation (newly learned word, lol) or think one is the whole cheese , this leads to my misfeeling to him? yeah.. most probably

yes.. really .. Now I only discover I always like this, always self-approbation, always guess other people thinking the same thing with what I am thinking. That's why I met the 'down', coz I've thought too much, exceeded, too greedy, desire for love maybe, desire to be loved, to be 'sayang'

actually he told me before, but I didn't change it and forgot about its existence in my inner heart. Yeah.. that's why I redo what I did, made the same mistake, finally, now.. I want to say that, I am very clear about this, I will change, surely, I won't make the same mistake, I've already understand what's my biggest weakness now~! wah... I really got many weakness indeed, erm.. really takes time to change hor.. no worry.. I will change gradually ^^

Finally, I will like to say thank you to him for teaching me such an useful lesson and many many things. You're bad indeed but Good too ^^ (eee....? why I always being self-contradictory 'zi xiang mau dun' de har?) ahahaa....(macam sedang beri ceramah saja? lol) Friendship forever ya~!
Of course, I want to thanks to my friends that comfort me by sending message to me in msn or leave the comment for the blog, thx ya~!

vocabullary learned today :
self-approbation / think one is the whole cheese
self-contradictory = expressing one thing which is the opposite of another thing that was already said; saying two things which cannot both be correct