Friday, April 15, 2005

LoVe ? confusing + complicated

Today, I'm happy because one of my best friend has had her first love. I hope they can be happy together forever, although many people said normally people don't end up with their first love. Most of us date several people, fall in love and out of love, and eventually walk up to the altar with someone when both mutually agree that this is it.
I wish them enough, wish my friend and her partner can together walk up to the altar one day, hopefully...

A columnist said, "to fall in love with someone is a minor miracle: often the timing isn't right. One is ready when the other isn't. Youth is indeed the stage to meet the pool of potential mates and when the timing is right, the wished-for bond cements."

yeah.. I think he(columnist)'s quite right, as... I was in the same situation... maybe not only "was" but also "coming soon"
Do I love him? or it's just a illusiveness? or?
18 years old... not a childishness age, but not yet a mature enough age, to you maybe not, but surely to me, I'm inmature. I can't control my feeling well... complicated... I don't know what I want now, I don't understand what I am feeling now... yup... you may don't understand what I am talking about right now... that's because I am so confusing right now. Love is suffering... I still don't know what is love

haiz... "you better don't think much about this, just concentrate on your study ler..." that is what I am thinking now... Hopefully, after two years of studying, I will be mature enough, either in deciding my future job or in my love world.
Beside, I hope I can change my bad attitude now. Hot-tempered, get angry easily, jelousy, envy, no self-confidence...blah blah blah...
yes~! say to myself, be a better lady~!

5 Comments:

Blogger Diane said...

aiya my dear, the time will come one, don have to crack your head thinking of it. when it comes it'll be just nice one. so chill ok? hehe

April 15, 2005 1:01 pm  
Blogger hedwig elaine said...

erm.. thx diane.. ya.. i know..
but.. now .. i dunno what i am thinking about jor...haiz... hope time will settle all things

April 15, 2005 1:23 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Naivety, immaturity, insecurities, irresponsibility, misjudgment, etc, will only kill love. and that's why i'm dead now. time will sure tell, but that depends. on both the individuals involved. unless there's a third person. my frens's mom once said, if u do ur studies rite and come out a successful person, that time u dont have to worry bout nobody wants u. well, i doubted it.

April 16, 2005 12:27 am  
Blogger hedwig elaine said...

erm.. maybe ur friend's mum is right, in my opinion.
For me, after you become a successful person, that does mean you are mature enough, knowledgeable, wisdom, attractive, if you involve in a relation that time, it would be better.
anyhow, love... really depends on timing and to each person... haha.. tat's y love is suffering =P

April 16, 2005 3:28 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

ASTK, that's what our teacher taught us in maths. Ai Shi Tong Ku. indeed, love hurts.

April 16, 2005 3:48 pm  

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