Wake Up, 16 days Left Only!

I'm in tense state all the time recently.....
I'm having only about 5-6 hours sleep everyday now [are separated into two sessions -- night & afternoon], yet I am not feeling tired like last time I was...
I can't fall asleep easily in the night, always need about half hour to put myself to rest. I would think about what I have done the whole day itself, and got tensed, fearful, uneasy.......
My mood is fluctuating all the time...

Last week (during the holiday..), I didn't study hard, I was not in the mood to do so... although I knew the time left is not much!
I know, many people are putting high expectation on me, because in the past, I'd done so well in the important exams.... while my results have been going down the grade in these two years....
I don't want to disappoint my friends and family, but .... well, actually I've disappointed them...

I have sat a chemistry test yesterday and two days ago, and I know the result will be bad also, maybe it will be better than the trial one, maybe.... sigh... it shows that I'm not well-prepared, memanglah.... belum habis baca pun! Sendiri pun tau cakap, tapi tak tau buat, apa guna?

Ridiculous, if you read my earlier posts.... I do not keep promise to myself, I had told myself to study hard, at the end, I did nothing..... what am I doing? I will surely hate myself in the future, and I will laugh out loud after reading those posts! Why am I so stupid one?

Hey, wake up lar Yee Leng.... don't dream anymore! Where are you, the one with confidence?
Maybe the time is not enough already, but just try as far as possible!

I want to rescue myself, I've been starting to try harder, to adjust my mood and to control myself after having an unproductive holiday last week.... just do whatever I can do now...

Sorry to the ones concern me...
Now, I will not give up, although the outcome may not as good as you have expected...