feeling LOST .... totally LOST

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sighhhhhh

Why I was so careless?

Without knowing what was really going on, I found my purse not with me only when I came back from school to the ground floor of the apartment I'm staying currently. That was when I needed the scanning card (which I put in the purse) for going up to the apartment unit by taking lift.

So, when and why the purse was not with me? I was very blur.... it was either left in the restaurant which I had my lunch or in the laboratory which I worked on my FYP. I walked back to these 2 places when I realised the OMG incident, but well... it's quite impossible to find it back if I really left the purse on the table etc. I remembered I had kept the purse, but it might fall out from the plastic bag etc. Or.... when I pulled out my labcoat which was placed in the same plastic bag with the purse, the purse was dropped and I didn't realise that. Well, of course I went back to check again, finally the answer was still negative.

I had tried to recall back but failed to trace. I had called many friends whom I was with during that period, but nobody could help me on that.... With great confused feeling + blur-ness + sadness + stressful + loneliness + helpless + lost-ness, I walked here and there.... and finally decided to go home. It was already 6++pm. I was struggling to make a police report or not. I was struggling to cancel my bankcards or not. At the end, I had made expensive calls to banks to block/cancel my ATM cards. I was told that in order to get a new ATM card, I need to pay RM12.......

Well, I couldn't accept the truth. Why I was so CARELESS???????

I can't even figure out HOW I lost the things....

There were many things inside T_T

IC and license... haiz...

Variety of cards...

my LIFT scanning card~~~~

Cash RM50, I don't really worry about this though...

(I'm not rich, but at this moment, it's not that important)

but luckily, I still had some little luck, my matrics card was still with me, because I had taken it out yesterday when I entered library and forgotten to put it back to purse.

So, now I am praying I can find the purse back. It's so so so important to me.

It is a BLACK leather purse/wallet.

I wish I really had put somewhere else and can find it back soon!

I wish it was not taken by somebody with bad intentions....

Purse ah Purse ah.... please come back to me~~~

I need you very much...........

I miss you.....

I slowly accept the truth...

but if you wanna come back to me without cash and bankcards,

never mind, but just come back to me...... with other cards...

无助。。。彷徨。。。好想哭

吓呆了，没有人陪在身旁，

一个人带着跌落谷底的心情，

独自去寻找。。。

此时此刻，好想有你在身旁。。。

我知道这是不可能的事，

所以只好靠自己，

但是我真的了解你是身不由己。

只要有你的爱与关心，

我一定可以撑下去的。