放手了

today I slept at 4am... woke up at 7am........ ya, I've just slept for about 3 hours...
but I'm still not sleepy now, now is 4pm, I'm quite happy today because I've decided to let go something which has been my burden in the past few months... which made me... suffer a lot..
After making this decision, I felt a relief... because I'm no longer waiting for something impossible to happen.
I used to keep giving hope to myself, sort of cheating myself, but finally I knew the truth and I know I should choose the smart way, the not-stupid way...
it's better than what I've expected, because I tell myself to be always expecting the worst.
虽然舍不得，不过是时候放手了，该执着时就该坚持下去，一旦没有希望时，就应该放弃。。。
做决定的时候是最痛苦，最犹豫不决的一刻；一旦做了决定，就能得到解脱。。。
至少他让我拥有一个美好的回忆，也让我多了一个好朋友。。。
对不起，谢谢你

*don't ask me what had happened*